Hurting

Our closest have lives
to live and enjoy –
delayed redundancy
in our sick bed-employ –

Carers – co-sufferers –
careers un-chosen –
tend the disconnected –
the mumblers and frozen –

Altered – shameful –
re-written contracts –
No wedded-bliss
when we ill cannot act –

Wives – husbands –
family – relatives old –
air-brushed awareness
As age takes hold –

My prop – my chained-helper –
Engaged far too cheap –
Her offset disbursement –
being too tired to weep

When care is passed on –
hear my atheist-prayer –
I ask her forgiveness
for our marriage – unfair