As if I am living

As if I am living in holiday
accommodation – alone/
My bathroom’s extractor
cannot shift sweaty air – a
mist across every cell-day
[a recall of you – bent over
me – telling me – no choice
of course – that’s how you
rolled – back then] – I want
to see my cousin – again &
again/ I was in no place to
complain – your schemes –
life to be in your sheltered
solution – your plan for me
to live away – back for tea?