I know it will end up
doing me in [that is
a given – after living
with it for too long –
solus] – utter losses
of purpose’ll screw
any dignified plans –
half lives of half lies
will fester no more –
no rap on my door –
keys will clog & rust
in locks – time to be
lost – a selfish act – I
pilot pain – I have it –
all extremities ache
with my contagion –
this is endless [until
I elect to terminate]