I miss that cruelty
I miss that cruelty – it is
a curse [it is fixed in my
blood] – bruised dignity
was my grisly swelling –
She told me things that
would make me sick – a
vomited response to all
her wins – Only from her
lips were cast such stuff
[of unbelievable songs]
& thrown up [again] as
olid slicks [they’ll crawl
across my bared skin] &
I am listening to crack &
snap of her whips – Hear
her now repeating it all?