#2,537 Still softly

I still suffer a soft PTSD –
says
my counsellor –
fallout’ll thin
[she says] in time & offer less
resistance to swell-er things –
to kindness & honesty –
those
also long missing –
Keep off all
medications & avoid contacts
who disarrange –
those lovers
of fleshy affirmation –
seekers
of dignity by dirtier tricks
[a
sad game played out] –
She is
one of those Sussex women –
open water devotees
[all year
round] –
Our sessions swell in
line with lunar surges –
a drift
of troubled recall is swept off
by her voice –
Do I go there to
listen as much as speak?
Our
relationship is built on me at
a loss –
treading fouled water
as she swims off
[£45 to dip]