I know every bench in Uckfield

I know every bench in Uckfield
& its rigid offerings [too honest
in framing my sittings] but I’m
a blank study to sell as they put
latest prices on my head [Hey!
Have you heard?
& other bets –

He is colour-by-numbers – He is
dot-to-dot – He is easily tricked
& Sudoku-fooled
]/ Cruel prices
re-layer – homemade-caked – a
thick piling-up [of sharp psycho
stuff] – brown sugar [sweet-ish]

Do not pay for any hand-made
bakes – unwrapped & delicate –
until tasted – in each bite took –
wait – wait – for poison’s hooks
[I’m on every bench in Uckfield
& await one cook’s cut by knife]

Chefs in white smocks gather to
carry off starters/ Chefyes – &
Yes Chef – too many – they spoil
stuff/ Three is a crowd – soured/
Throw brown sugar to quell – to
sweeten & stiffen resting places

where varnish is treacled across
giving timbers – my bench – here
I’ll sit – on sugar-wood [screwed
& washered to aid my recovery]
They rape ancient woodlands – a
seat is axed & my ill-rest is stolen

Where my stick is angled to prop
[& not fall] – for studies I have sat
to watch birds walk [a bare cook
at work – that rook with her gloss
of feathers] – our greedy gatherer
of sugared ingredients at my feet

& still we cannot speak of truths –
as if my self-portrait is too untrue
between my charcoal sweeps – in
each digging-at I spoke of snaps –
break of burnt stuff [of cooked art
& too much time given to studies]

All this is mine [my view – my type
of words – my phrase-pots]/ Don’t
[do not] try to know my hauls/ You
thick-set fools who’ll look too hard
for gold in barren seams/ Sit back
& wait – wait for fuller explanation

of meaning [of verse]/ Word-soup
is one view/ I will watch cars piss
up Brown’s Lane – speeding – fast
to homes – quick to conflict/ Here
remembrance for long-gone-dead
& others rested on empty benches

How I Am Doing

A red heart beats in my tall bin
it trots out subtle thud-a-thuds
[no one will die tonight]/ It is a
struggle to talk about ‘how I’m
doing‘ – I attend a playground-
bait of held-back & brave boys
don’t cryhold it off – greeted
endings won’t happen – as that
[round battery] raps descants/
I had plucked it from my pup’s
toy & left it to wither [& expire]

Dog Walking

To get her to release
push your finger into
her mouth & she’ll let
go – it’s easy – I agree

We followed our path
of likely slips in mud –
negotiating slopes &
wind-lowered boughs

as our foolish puppies
spun around at blind
games of crashing &
jaws – snapping wild –

their paths expanded
to take them through
places suited to their
unknown hiding prey

But not us – we hiked
on that marked route
without a way around
storm-dropped pools

& then talked about it
Me: Your thoughts plot
your happiness – easy
for you to say – unsaid

by her – So I have to let
them loose – unhooked
& not attend to what is
carried in their mouths

But she’ll always worry
too much about riddles
& puzzles set by doubt
Dog walks taken by us

are a way to talk freely –
without tied constraints
of cups of tea or facing
each other – we walk on